I have been doing it pretty much continually since monday afternoon. Just constant note taking and card making, and my hand actually hurts from holding the pen. From the minute I got up this morning till now, I have only taken like two half hour breaks and an hour long visit from Judd (in which he tested me). And yet I still can’t remember all the shitty philosophers names, or phrases or anything.
I just feel like I’ve been doing it forever and yet nothing is being accomplished. It is definitely my worse subject and yet I need to get an A in the exam tomorrow or I am completely and utterly fucked. This is the first time I’ve felt like I actually might fail. Part of me wants it to be over but part of me is worried that this time tomorrow I’ll know that I have no hope of getting into either of the unis I’ve applied to.
Shit man.
ahahah no i’m 100% sure it wasn’t serious, he isn’t like that at all, I just felt the need to vent at something. I’ve gone from feeling okay to feeling pretty worthless in the space of five minutes, but yeah I hope I feel better soon too! - OH I JUST GOT you thought he meant he was NOT luvin life as in the whole thing was sarcastic?! Hm, idk, that isn’t the impression I got. On the day of our break up he was tweeting about exams. Call it a lady’s pride, but you’d have thought I’d have got a mention :’)
what hurts the most is I don’t even think he’s hurting
I just made the mistake of looking on his twitter, and literally two days after we broke up he tweeted ‘luvin life’
I mean fuck, it was THAT EASY? Like shit, he literally didn’t grieve for our relationship one bit. He isn’t missing me at all?! HE IS LUVIN LIFE?
SPELL LOVING PROPERLY YOU ASSHOLE.
I mean we broke up because he didn’t really fancy me anymore, but the loss of me in his life didn’t even register at least one slightly down tweet?! I’ve been practically weeping all over the internet. It makes me so angry and it makes me want to message him or something, and be all YO HOLMES, AT LEAST SHED A TEAR.
gah
